new song: So into You - Fabolous ft. Ashanti

new background..new theme?..haha dont ask why, i have NO clue!

examz ish now outa dah way, and itz a byebye exam helllllo life :) finallie. got my results back todae..psychology wuz -.-" she is sucha hard marker i swear. we're only year 10 wen she marks wid a year 11 attitude. but wutever. mafz wuz ..

back to fridae where i went out wid my gurlios, and some dudes..whom i forgot..but i do rmbr my harli harli kimchi boo boo~ hahaha* [feel special] watched how to lose a guy in 10 dayz. it wuz prettie cooh* bernard wuz the loudest [yet smallest] guy there. people had to move away from us. me and harli had to quiet him down..which wuz impossible. then mucked around a bit..had to leave fuking earli..since my mom wuz being a bytch. :( then later in the night, my mom asked why i went back home so early..urgh* thanks heaps..my day wasted! :(

saturdae..wuz..urmz? okay? forgot everything~ sunday..hahahha~..i honestly f.o.r.g.o.t i think ima loosing my memory..in way good in a way bad :(

ict--> ROAR!~ 26th may..deadline for problem ID. analysis. initial ideas. that makes me soo dayam stressed. only finido half way of analysis..sighhhhh*.. :( why oh whyy! any howww..

a special HI HI HI to stella since she wuz ever so nice enuff to help me wid everything..and being a cooh piggie...heheh*..in a nice way..urmz..yeah*..

EARLIE HAPPIE BDAE TO KITYAN*..since i think i forgot wen ure bdae ish.. :P whoopz sorry dude~ take kareeee*..

and heyz to everyone else! :)

yes, i've promised myself not to update..but hey! i kan resist anything but temptation

physics n eng lit wuz so fuct up. chemistry wuz easy!! hehe! oh i have done shouties for so long, so hehe, this will be one of the long ass blogs*

jess mui* feel speshul, cuz ure first!! since ure abandoning ure pretty xanga, i just feel so sorry for it!! uve kept it so nice and colourful and the so called *entertaining* wid all those shexay pix!! suen lah!!! i noe why u wanna make a last entry! anyway, this is not the main sub! rmbr how we argued? like the once in a life time? hehe! we both forgot abt it lu! haha!!!! since we are such good good sisters!! we've been thru pretty much..i mean all those unneccissary things [i think ive spelt dat rong ] it wuz pretty lame and stupid! glad we went thru it. gone thru so much happie and sad times! itz like countless. been awesome noeing u and all! listening to my lameless, sobbers, and my gayness! hehe..shared sooo much ryte? hehe. welpz, just wanna give u a big thanks and a big sorry to everything and that sisters for life okay? never gona forget you*..alwaiz dah best sister i WILL ever have. mwahz*

2). claudia* this lil girl wuz seriously alwaiz there wen im sad, wen i have problems, or wen i'm happie* u noe like, every feeling that's inside me, and wut i think* seems like u've lived inside me* okay im sounding gay! but hey! thanks for all those times and things uve sed to me* i shall never forget all the lessons uve taught me. even tho im still feeling the same, i've seen everything in another perspective. i gess i shan't ever hide them anymore, now that i noe who i can find* and hoo i kan seriously trust* right? hehe~ a big thank you for helping me with all those bad times * i swear!! u've made everything easier for me. u never seemed to mind it wen i find u or like annoy you or wutever~ sorry to have got chu worried* u kan alwaiz find me or wutever if u need okay? still wana noe everything abt u and the *rubber* person!

3). joanne* welpz, even tho we don't talk as much now..duznt mean i cant give u one right? rmbr all those times we used to talk, and like cry together, and solve things together??? hehe. just because of one arguement, itz like this lu* but it wont matter yeh? hehe* life changes* i still rmbr that day, during the health fair thing in the hall* it wuz rather touchy wen u actually walked back to me wen i wuz being a bytch to u* seriously, i cant believe u would actually run behind me to the toilet, and like sit next to the toilet bowl wid me in the smelly toilet!! trying to cheer me up for like 30 minz..den taking care of me to the changing room* that wuz such a memoriable thing. so sweet of you* even tho everything's so messed up now, and like we are far apart, i noe we both are glad to have had each other as besties before, and all those great times we had* nevertheless, u kan alwaiz talk to me wen u want okay? stop being so stupid and immature lah* ure a big gurl* take great kare of ureself* mwahz*

4). Ajai* okay ure like another copy of claudia* what i want to say to u is excatly the same as claudia* but wutever!! ure pretty different from her* yes of course haha. ure a guy shez a gurl* but anyway that aint the point* u've also taught me ever so much. alwais the first to find me wen im like upset or just trying to be stupid. even tho ure gona like leave us, ure alwaiz gona be in my mind and heart [okay that's really ...weird for me to say!] cant believe we were in the same primary school. that meanz we've known each other for like 5 years!! widout knowing!! oh, rmbr to take good kare of ureslef in auzzie* now that ure parents wont be wid chu, it's ure heaven lah, but dont like..over do everyhting. u still gota get work done* ure parents just want the best for u, i noe u get annoyed when they insist u to do work, but think abt it, u do want better grades yeh? sometimes, paretns are right, but we never know that they are cuz wen we are pissed off, we do get blinded a bit~! trust me! okay! rmbr wen u leave yah, emailz/xanga/msn okay? i STILL gota know everything that's going on* take kare*..

5). tiffany gurl* hehe! ure just like..another person who i can share stuff wid, and that i can trust as well* u seem to know how i feel and everything as well!!! u've taught me sooooooooooooooo much..also with a bit of shouting at me to wake me up* maybe ure right, it is time for me to forget, and that im just tooooooooo obsessed and stubborn to think that way! hehe. maybe it does take me 22 months to do so..but i just hope not! sucha waste of time yeh? well, now MY turn to lecture YOU* u gota balance out ure time okay gurl??? and have fun doing the present*..hmm* cant say tooo much in public for u here*..so im sorry to give u a short shout okay? any way, thanks for the lectures, and sorry for wasting ure time/annoying u wid my stubborness okay? hehe* good luck wid EVERYTHING***** and u can always find me if u needah talk* mwahz*

6). eugenie* hehe..my dear mollie* sigh, itz sad that ure gona leave* never gona have the mollies agen lu!!!! but it wuz fun during all these dayz in english wid chu* dont worry about anything, i'll STILL rmbr you wen u leave, cuz ure my ONLY molllie!!!!! right? hehe!! wenever i see ribbons and sugar it'll automatically reminds me of our friendship and all those fun times gossipping! hehe! u have to take REALLY GOOD kare of ureslef okay? siu sum d ah! dont hurt ureslf or get sick!!!!!!!!!! mwahz*

7). ika* hehe! havent gave u a shout b4?..or have i? i forgot!!!! haha~ but anyway! howz dah heart going? still like half soft and half hard? i'm sure she'l still luf it okay..cuz she LUFZ you gah mah!!!!!!! but anyway!!!! we've shared numberous times together..like all those FUN lessons..wid gay jokes and all* but they were the ONLY things to keep us awake in some lessons [not to note any..but u noe wut i mean hehe ying sek..lime..fei por] hehe!!! todae we were just tlakin abt the pass times in year 8 yeah? haha! they were awesomeeeeeee! so mo yao mo liu right? now year 10..soooo fuct up!!! we haev like similar hates and likes for teachers* maybe cuz we haev so mani classes togetherrrrr.. any way~ g'L for u in the next two years for ure fave sub* and the blonde bytch as well* ..we've NEVER had a decent lesson..and i NOE we never will hehe! take kareeeee!!!!

now playing: miss you - aaliyah

first thing first, EXAM WUZ BAD. english sat there for lyke 2 hours 15 minutes plain writing like 6 pages of full A4 wuz NOT FUN at all. den last 15 minutes sat there wid a sore bum under a freezing air con. french wuz just like o.O..didnt understand a word. bio wuz aite. tmr ish..geo and mafz no calc he-he-he o.m.g but wutever!! hehe. i just "kinda" revised. then "kinda" didnt bother!

oh and a lil smf dat i found..

"you said i was the coolest person on earth,
now you deny it.
you fled me,
you took away my soul, my dreams and everything i owe.
Before you left me,
I was the luckiest person on earth.
But now you're gone,
I only wept and sobered
in the dark corner that i once left behind.
But now the corner calls me back in total darkness.
I need you back now.
Please please come back to me,
You're my only angel that gives me light.
And now I asked you nicely,
please please come back baby.

hehe. so sweet!! any how i wanna change my banner, but i dunno why it's appearing like mega big wen i post it up..but itz perfect here! urgh! so annoying!

not gona update for the next..2 weekz! well, at least try not to! hehe. good luck to everyone..and yeah!! hehe.

lil "wave" to: claudia, tiffany, jian, sarah, chilun, stella, derek, eugenie, judith, ben, JESS MUI, jeff, derek, ajai, sky, adrian,jason,ika,jen.. eh and i cant think of more..brain ish stuck hehe.

I had so much, but you took them all away. Why? Why is it always me? Why cant i own wut i had, my love, my possession, my space, my freedom, my life, myself. Why cant i have wut i need? I thought i had them all..but within seconds, i'll loose grip, and they disappear from my life, forever- Then when will u plan to take my life? Now? You're doing something so cruel to me, slowly taking everything away, like how my breathing stops. I guess i don't have a choice no more, but just to live with the flow. I don't understand.  It's my life, then why cant i say "i want that to stay! that's important to me!" Why? or is it because you don't want me to be selfish? i was? i was not, i am not, and i will not! why won't you let thing return? my love, my possessions, life and above all..ME* im loosing myself. i know sooner or later, you're gona win over my..my soul* i can see it coming like a blink of an eye* i prayed, i begged, i pleaded, i cried, and i even ended just to have them all back..all i want is just one simple wish..is for everything to return..is it that difficult? i thot u were omniscient..u were powerful..but wut happened to me? am i an exceptional? someone please tell me an answer. im lost in the middle of confusion. screaming at the top of my lungs, and i still get no reply. cry till my tears are dry, i still see no one around me.  i think u shuld leave me and please, let me die in peace[*]